It is September 7, 2012 and I have found new motivation and have been kicking butt!

I have learned this week that the hardest part of losing weight is not what foods to eat or how much I should exercise but instead is finding and keeping the motivation for weight loss. It is the determination and the drive. I really want this lately…I can taste it I want it so bad and I’m hungry for it…no pun intended ;)

Starting at 255lbs I am so close to not only a 50lb loss but I am weighing in at 206.8 which means I am ridiculously close to being less than 200lbs! Ah to see 199.9 will be amazing…just the thought of looking down at a scale that I AM standing on that is telling me 199.9 will be like watching magic happen!

I just hope that this motivation stays with me and brings me to the end of my weight loss journey at whatever number that ends up being but for not I’m enjoying the journey and am excited for what is next!

Breakfast: an orange

Lunch: Subway veggie delight 6in, baked bbq chips and a diet coke

Dinner: Nachos <—New Years Eve tradition FAIL! =) I havent eaten them yet but I plan to.

Oops: Strawberry shortcake ice cream pop + a mini york peppermint patty…cookies..

So today there will be damage done and I totally binged !I will just hope that Sunday will be good enough to see a loss on Mondays weigh in.

Stay safe everyone!!

Brunch: 8pc sushi crunch roll + Diet coke

Dinner: Lean Cuisine spinach and mushroom pizza + water

Oops: Strawberry ice cream pop and two fig newton cookies….OiNk!

Modification at 11PM: Coffee w/ vanilla caramel creamer + splenda

Today I really didnt eat much and that is because I am on a medication that is killing my appetite and when I do eat more…well…bad things happen haha :) Plus I have been so stressed out about my upcoming move across country.

A weird experience: When I am on a diet I usually eventually find the foods that work for me and that I dont get sick of…If you notice in all my food logs I have very similar things that I eat everyday and sushi every friday…the reason for this is because when I find something that works for me then it can only go one of two ways…I either get tired of the same stuff and blow my diet OR I continue to eat the same day after day and become terrified to stray from my routine fearing that my change in food will cause a weight gain…Example: Id like to consider having eggs or something else for breakfast but I have been eating toast so much that Im scared if I dont eat toast I will go off my diet haha…Is that crazy? Its just what im experiencing right now.

Breakfast: 2 pieces of white toast with parkay spray butter + water

Lunch: 1 individual bag of smart choice popcorn + cherry coke ZERO

Dinner: Lean Cuisine pizza + Coffee with vanilla caramel creamer and splenda

Snack: A few pieces of homemade beef jerky

Today was a pretty decent day considering my cravings were out of control all day and I resisted the urge to cheat on my diet! Since I had that horribly bad grilled cheese yesterday I think my body was trying to go back to bad eating habbits today and I am just glad I made it out of the day without effing it all up.

Quote of the day: “You’ve got to get up every morning with determination if you’re going to go to bed with satisfaction.” George Lorimer

Breakfast: 2 pieces of whole wheat toast with peanut butter

Lunch: Grilled cheese sandwhich with curly fries and a soda…FAIL

Dinner: A couple bites of mac&cheese …i was still feeling guilty about lunch

Snack: Nutrigrain bar (strawberry)

Oops: There was no room for anymore bad food today.

So yea pretty much today sucked! I will do better tomorrow.

Ok so I’ve had this Bed Bath & Beyond gift card that I have been hanging onto for a few weeks that I got from bank account reward points.  Thanks to Tumblr I have discovered zucchini chips which I have attempted to make now a couple times and they always come out soft and not crispy like chips! So I learned that if you want them truly crispy like a chip a dehydrator is needed.

Of course right when I got home from buying it I set it up and started dehydrating!

In my dehydrator right now…

Zucchini (of course because that was the whole point in buying it)

Banana

Pineapple

… and beef that is marinating in the fridge to make beef jerky overnight :)

I will let you all know how it all turns out!!  

Brunch: Pita bread with spinach and atrichoke dip

Snack: Zucchini chips with zucchini dip <-I need a dehydrator because these came out kind of mushy

Dinner: Pasta with sauce + Hot cocoa w/ mini marshmallows

and lots of water! Pretty decent day. I would have liked to get in some meat and maybe some more nutritious foods because I feel like I was snacking today instead of having meals but all in all it was a good day.

Its that time again!! The start of a fresh week! After all the holiday treats and the lack of excercise and the foods that I probablys should have skipped…*DRUMROLL*

I still managed to lose 2.9lbs this week!! I am so frigan excited I cant stand it! I feel like I just got lucky this week. Although that is a awesome weight loss and I did reach my mini goal of 229.9 I just want to say that it was not without struggle. This was a very tough week and I did see lots of weight fluctuations throughout the week both loss and gain and I really didnt know what to expect when I weighed myself this morning. I felt like I would never get out of the 230’s but FINALLY I did it!

Where I am at…

Starting weight: 250lbs  Current weight: 229.9   Mini goal weight: 225.9

Wish me luck for the following week everyone and I wish you all lots of luck on your diets!! Lets keep it healthy =)

I slept in today and Breakfast turned into…

Brunch: 2 pieces of whole wheat toast with peanut butter

Snack: Apple

Dinner: Lean Cuisine cheese pizza

Oops: A couple M&M’s but not enough to beat myself up over

& A couple glasses a water

I know it doesnt look like much food for a whole day but I was busy cleaning and I wasnt feeling my best today plus tomorrow is my weigh in and this week hasnt been the best so I just wanted to go easy today.

I hope you all had a very wonderful Christmas or whatever your holiday is!